Written by Jenny Ortman
The VCI is quite phenomenal, and it has taught me a lot about the beauty of the female body. Prior to doing the VCI procedure routinely, I had a great amount of difficulty moving energy down the front of my body in general, and especially around my hips and upper thigh region. There was also this sticky or gross feeling around that area, like everything was all clogged up and holding tight together. Energetically, I could not seem to connect with this area too well, and all of this greatly affected my physical, mental, and spiritual functioning and mobility. It also made me feel very tired, confused, and fearful about many things. It may sound strange, but this alone caused me to hate myself very much at times, I’ve always just thought the congestion and tightness was due to overtraining as an athlete for many years, and also having hip surgery in high school; however, the more I began to practice the pushing down exercise and develop, it became apparent that there was more to it than this. As development progressed, I began to become more aware of this area of my body, and came to understand that there were many traumas held here. Strangely, I began to associate certain emotions and feelings this region that seemed to relate to the traumas in a way. Although I do not recall ever being raped but it felt as if this had occurred. I entertained the idea that perhaps I was raped, and just completely dissociated from the experience. I’m not sure if this is true still, but I’m also not sure if it is entirely false.
I am suspect that rape did occur, but in an energetic form rather than a physical form. For many years I have held a strong fear of men, and I could not figure out why. Now that my intuitive sense has strengthened, I think I understand that actually the affects of rape were induced upon me from my interactions with unhealthy men in the past (and also manipulators and energy vampires) and others who sought to take my power away. I think maybe their thoughts and energies transferred to me somehow and stayed in this area to cause confusion. I am also extremely sensitive to energy fields, so now when I am around other people I can feel this area begin to feel all clogged and I just feel like a disgusting thing….not even like a human being, like a toy, or something that is there to use. This usually brings feelings of fear, confusion, self doubt, and anxiety as well. Although I can not directly read people’s thoughts, I do have an ability to feel energies from them, which translates to messages. Unfortunately, there are men (and women!) everywhere that project negative energies onto everyone. Mostly this comes from motivations of lust, desire, selfishness, hatred, jealousy…pretty much everything that is the opposite of the Ten Commandments. Thus, it is very easy for this area of the body to begin feeling “clogged’ again.
When I first read about the VCI I could not even think about doing it. I was THAT terrified of that area of my body. Very irrational it seems, but it’s true. There was something that resonated with it though, and I could feel the Truth showing me that this would help solve the symptoms within my hip region. Finally, one day I mustered up the courage to try it. It was a frugal attempt, but nonetheless, I felt immediate relief. All of a sudden I could actually breathe into my lower body. My hips opened up, and I felt free and safe. I felt clean, and more like a woman than I have ever felt before, and not ashamed or afraid of it. The best part is that I felt whole, capable, and not afraid to move (I know that sounds weird) and be open. The more I perform the VCI procedure, the better I can move the energy down my legs and front body. My posture has improved tremendously. I feel more grounded and centered. I’m more happy. I think I can even feel my central channel beginning to open, or at least I can feel it is there now. Healing this area has not only helped my feel better physically, but it has given me my dignity back, and the courage to be vulnerable within the world. For women, the VCI is like a shield in battle; the procedure restores your identity as the Real Self, and provides clarity of thought, certainty of action, and peace and gratitude for embodying the Truth in the form of a female being.
